i wish to god i could be with you right now. losing a freind is so hard. i have lost freinds to suicide and soem to cancer in the past 3 years i have lost 19 freinds to differnt things. i tell myself it's just how things go and it's happened enough i should get used to it. but you never do get used to someone close to you dying. i'm so sorry for your loss if you need anything just let me know i will be here for you

Yesterday morning around 11:00am someone called me, telling me that my freind Ryan had died a few hours ago. At first i thought it was a joke, but then i realized that he was being seriuse.
Ryan was only 15, and he lived on the other side of the neighborhood from me. He was a real nice, simple kid. If i had to describe him, he was kinda the "live for the moment" person, that would alwase want to have fun no matter what he was doing. He had epilepsy, just like his 16 year old sister that had also died two years earlier. It use to be so fun playing with him.. He would alwase make me smile, even if we were doing something totaly sense-less. I remember how just half a week ago how me and Kevin (another friend) would mist watter on ryan, and put dirt on him to make it look like he had gone to B-team football practive, even though he had just skiped it and had played with kevin in his house for the practice time. We did that every day for four straight football practice's until his parents finaly found out and Ryan was grounded.. The next morning is when his dad found him dead, lying down in his bead. He tried to do C-P-R on ryan, but i guess it just didnt work.
I dont know what bothers me the most about him dieing.. I think it was that he was alwase so nice to everyone, even though some of them made fun of him for haveing epilepsy. This is the first time ive lost someone that realy meant something to me. I realy cried only for about an hour, but i havnt compleetly stoped.. I just have a weird feeling that he wont be there anymore playing football in his yard, or trying to make new freinds. I will never forget Ryan, or any of the things me, him and Kevin did to just have fun.

I lost my best friend June 3rd, I know how you feel.. and what you're going through.

Yesterday morning around 11:00am someone called me, telling me that my freind Ryan had died a few hours ago. At first i thought it was a joke, but then i realized that he was being serious.
Ryan was only 15, and he lived on the other side of the neighborhood from me. He was a really nice, simple kid. If i had to describe him, he was kinda the "live for the moment" person, that would always want to have fun no matter what he was doing. He had epilepsy, just like his 16 year old sister that had also died two years earlier. It use to be so fun playing with him.. He would always make me smile, even if we were doing something totaly sense-less. I remember how just half a week ago how me and Kevin (another friend) would mist water on Ryan, and put dirt on him to make it look like he had gone to B-team football practive, even though he had just skiped it and had played with kevin in his house for the practice time. We did that every day for four straight football practice's until his parents finally found out and Ryan was grounded.. The next morning is when his dad found him dead, lying down in his bed. He tried to do C-P-R on Ryan, but i guess it just didnt work.
I dont know what bothers me the most about him dying.. I think it was that he was always so nice to everyone, even though some of them made fun of him for having epilepsy. This is the first time I've lost someone that really meant something to me. I really cried only for about an hour, but I haven't completly stopped.. I just have a weird feeling that he won't be there anymore playing football in his yard, or trying to make new freinds. I will never forget Ryan, or any of the things me, him and Kevin did to just have fun.


OMG im so sorry my moms frends BF of 30 years just died last week. ive never losed anyone in my life.... but i do feel sorry for u. :'(

Here are some pictures of him:
this is him at the beach in S.C


This is him on a cruise

im sorry for you, i know its a hard thing to deal with.

one question though, he died because of epilepsy? my friend has that but she treats it so how did he die of that?

medicine isn't always perfect
it doesn't work for everyone the same way